"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew is Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." -Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)
Phew. Sorry it's been so long since I've done one of these, but it's just been crazy lately and I've been posting some prewritten posts.
I might be a little rusty. I've been working on my 'main hoe' novel, A Cactus In the Valley, however, this series is focused around my novel about a school shooting.
1. What were some of your dreams and desires as a child?
While my 'dreams' in terms of what I wanted to be have changed, the core value remains the same. I don't want to be ordinary. I always knew that I want meant to do something more. Something greater.
When I was a child, I never focused on my career. I just focused on what I wanted to do, what I wanted to be. I had wonderful parents who fostered the music inside of me, and let it play. Whatever I wanted to pursue, they let me, they supported me. And of course, I had phases. I wanted to be a figure skater for point-five seconds. But they stuck with the belief and faith that God had placed a gift inside of me, and that it was their job to sift through and search and bring it out in me.
And I thank them tenfold for this.
2. How have you seen God's hand in your life, weaving desires from long ago into your present situations?
My favorite question :). Every once in a while, I will go back and read through old dreams I have had, and listen to tapes of the Good Ol' Christ The King days of people prophesying over me, and I am more and more amazed of how these things are coming true in my life now. Specifically, I remember many people telling me that I was going to be a servant leader. And this is what I'm doing now, in high school. I am planting seeds of hope in a barren wasteland, preparing the way of the Lord in the hearts of the next generation.
Not only that, I receive confirmation frequently that this is where I'm supposed to be - despite how much I despise it. I was heavily rejected at PCS, the school I went to from K-6th grade. They never understood my artistic creativity and passionate love. They rejected my writing, which was blossoming in fifth grade. I became more and more uncomfortable in the tight mold that PCS was trying to shove me in. And halfway through sixth grade, I was convinced that I was supposed to go to public school. Not only was this being prayed about by my parents, but God placed the desire in me to go out there and explode into the woman of God I am today.
Heh, I could talk about this subject for days. But all that really matters is how I feel right know, being secure and knowing that God's hand is moving in my life, that it's not all happenstance and that there is some meaning to this crazy world we find ourselves in.
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Then, it instructs to reflect and repeat a prayer. Following, is a self-discussion starter about releasing the message, etc. Most of what this is should come out in the passage I write.
Truly, the largest thing that's come out of me reading and studying along with this book is that this school shooting story needs to happen. No matter how fetus it is in it's conception, no matter how underdeveloped or weak, it needs to be told. And it will get there by the inspiration and grace of God.
But God, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that the world will push back just as hard as I push it. I'm afraid that I'll never reach my goals, that I'll never get my work out there, that I'll be stuck in a dead end job with a life I hate.
But my dreams are among the stars and my hopes high. I am destined for greatness, and called to love. Anything else that happens is just a stone on the path of life that You have laid in front of me.
All praise and glory be to Jesus Christ, to whom I owe my all.
~The WordShaker
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