Saturday, April 29, 2017

Fanfiction's Purpose in the Writing World

"Every writer I know has trouble writing," -Joseph Heller

I've been a writer for fourteen years.

While this specific title wasn't self-proclaimed until about six years ago, and while I haven't made a single cent on my passion, fourteen years to my name is impressive for the blossoming age of seventeen, not to toot my own horn or anything.

Like any human trying anything new, we imitate. As developing children, we learn to speak and walk by watching our parents - we imitate.

This is why fan-fiction is essential for new writers.

Fan-fiction, for all you noobs out there, is fiction written by fans of a particular original work.  Examples being: a fan writing an alternate ending to The Hunger Games series, about a character's untold backstory on Lost, about what happened to Hazel Grace after Gus died and she read his letter - it can be anything, as long as it's related to a fandom.  However, fan-fiction has a notorious reputation on the internet for being extremely and inappropriately sexual, and for having poor grammar and atrocious writing.

Like any young child, I spent a good portion of my free time coloring and drawing pictures.  Except I would create a series of pictures, and characters and plotlines to go along with it.  And even before I was able to pick up a pencil and scratch out any words myself, I was creating stories.  So I would tell my mom what each picture meant and what was happening, and she would write them down and then staple them together.  To this day, they sit in my basement in a huge Tupperware tub - that's how much I wrote.

And my most notable works was a three-part retelling of Cinderella where she was a princess and a secret agent who lived under the stairs of her evil step-family's house with her cat. My most favorite, however, was 'The Incredibles Meet Shark-Boy and Lava-Girl"  where these two bands of supers teamed up to fight the Omnidroid 11.

I kid you not.

Later, however, I began to develop my own stories with my own plot and characters - and while these were loosely based on my childhood obsessions and almost every character had a real life counterpart, fan-fiction was a good part of my writing journey.

This is why I am for writers writing fan-fiction - as long as this is not their only avenue. Admittedly, I still dabble in fan-fiction if I'm in between ideas, my original story isn't doing much for me, or if I just want to get back into the mood of writing.

And even for experienced writers, fan-fiction is good to exercise the writing muscle - to try new things, to perfect a skill, or to just keep you in shape in between projects.

While I would personally hesitate telling people that you're a writer if all you write is fan-fiction, fan-fiction can be constructive to any writer. It's important to remember that  fan-fiction has it's place - and this place is for personal enjoyment and exercising the writing muscle.

Write carefully, fanpeople.

~The WordShaker

Saturday, April 22, 2017

The Small Things ~ A Character Study

"Find what causes a commotion in your heart. Find a way to write about that," -Richard Ford

In the novel I'm currently working on, Amelia gives a list to Roman for him to read whenever he feels down. It ends up being the framework for what they do to make someone in the group feel better. 

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a list of good things 
by Amelia
-music. the windows down, blasting kind
-the taste of chocolate when that's all you're craving
-the night sky, when it's darkest out and you can see all the stars
-being there for someone
-fall leaves and their colors
-hot tea, a good book, and the sounds of rain
-local cafes with gourmet sandwiches
-the laughter of someone you love
-fairy lights
-the one thing that makes you want to be alive and on this earth
-this list

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Amelia loved the stars, the sea, the open road, and summer heat, windows down, wind-in-your-hair rock music. 

Amelia hated small talk, the crushing brightness of winter afternoons, and most people, some of the time. 

Roman loved the ebb and flow of classical music, and the way that it fell like rain from his fingers. 

Roman hated walls, abandoned playgrounds at night, and himself.

Bailey loved the cold of a lake and the laughter that seemed infectious as it passed through others. 

Bailey hated upturned noses, dirty snow, and the way her brain would swirl like milk and betray her. 

Elliot loved the way his favorite musical could always make him cry, and how Bailey would never make fun of him for it. 

Elliot hated the snickers of mocking laughter, actual Snickers, and the man he called his father. 

Alice loved the sand under her fingernails, the nervous sweat of a crush, and all things involving Coca-Cola. 

Alice hated the grip of uselessness, skinned knees, and her feelings. 

Nick loved the electric thrill of leather and dirt, and her. He loved her. 

Nick hated the sighs of unenthusiasm, candid photos, and anyone remotely like him. 


Together, they were a collection of oddities, an antique shop from the future, but never the summation of their broken parts. Like a puzzle piece, like flowers growing through cracks, they found a place. 

That place wasn't perfect - it was just as wrought and bent as they were - but it was a good place. A safe place, like a little handmade, painted vase in a world of mass-produced pots. 

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So. I guess that's a bit of a sneak peek of my novel. I've been working on it a lot more lately, and hell, it feels good to be getting elbow deep in creating again. 

~The WordShaker

Saturday, April 15, 2017

13 Thoughts about "13 Reasons Why"

"The worst thing you can do is censor yourself as the pencil hits the paper. You must not edit until you get it all on paper," -Stephen Sondheim

Note: These are my opinions, mostly. Feel free to disagree, kindly. I know this is a sensitive topic, but don't discredit me or my thoughts because I didn't find this series flawless. Just because I didn't think this was perfect and I think there are some things wrong with it doesn't mean it's not important or impactful to other people. 


1. Clay Jensen is an angel, and the actor is phenomenal. 

You can't help but fall in love with Clay. Anyone who says they don't love Clay is lying. He's a strong character who surely can carry the weight of the show on his shoulders. Dylan Minette does an unspeakably great job. He captures the mannerisms, the subtle movements, and the emotions of Clay with astounding perfection. But Clay isn't perfect - he's human. And that's even more perfect. 

2. It's definitely not what I expected. 

One of the reasons I hesitated on watching this show is that it was pitched as a mystery. Still, I expected it to be about how the 13 reasons connected, dealt with it, listened, and learned. Or something like that. I guess I assumed that because that's the stories that I like, and I was a little bored and offput by the direction of the show. However, since I haven't read the book, I came to accept it for what it was.  

3. Justin's flawless character development. 

I'll talk more about characters and character development later. But Justin especially. We're led to believe he's this basic, popular hot guy, but then it turns this stereotype on its head. Through all of this awful shit he does, we are still able to see what he goes through and why he's like this. And, truth be told,  I didn't like him much until his backstory is slowly revealed. What sold me is his undying love for Jessica. It was so heartbreaking and admirable of him, and it showed his humanity, which fleshed him out immediately, and then everything else he had done in the show made sense.  

4. I had a hard time connecting to Hannah in the beginning. 

I attribute this to her lack of development as a human being. For about half of the show, I sympathized with Hannah but I didn't empathize with her feelings or see her as this whole person, as we should have from the beginning. If she was developed as a character earlier, the beginning part of the show wouldn't be so mild, and the things people did to Hannah in the beginning would have hit the audience harder. Another complaint is the question of why she didn't tell her parents. Up until we see them fighting a bit at the end, we're never given a reason why she wouldn't tell them about her other problems. This also was a roadblock in me connecting with her because, at times, she seemed to be acting kind of ridiculous. However, as the series progressed, we were shown that she really is a good person, further solidifying her character. 

5. Episode 13 lost its way. 

Throughout the whole series, I found that this was less about Hannah than it was about Clay. And episode 13 should have put more of the focus on Clay, and seeing how he truly learns and moves on. Where it does pick itself back up is when Clay calls after Skye. However, it wasn't as powerful as I had wanted. More on this later. 

6. I've heard a lot of stories about suicide, and this was mostly uninspirational. 

"But Olivia," you say. "It's about a girl who commits suicide. It's not supposed to be inspirational."  And to that I say, the purpose of art is to teach. And while it does do a great job of teaching the watcher about bullying and it's effects, it lacks something. Every good teacher should inspire us to become our best selves, to reach for the stars. And since art teaches, it should also inspire. An exception to this is when Clay reaches out to Skye, because this shows he learned his lesson and changes because of it, which is inspirational. However, nothing else in the story is inspiratioal, and with a story as dark and depressing as this, it needs to have some level of inspirational quality in order to balance out the darkness.  It's important for a story like this to be inspirational so it gives the watchers - who probably relate to this - hope.

8. The cast of complex characters. 

Clay, Sheri, Alex, Zach, Tyler, Ryan, Justin. Some of these characters were slow burns, like Justin and Zach. But all of the characters above are truly complex human beings. And what makes them so is that we're not only shown their personality and who they are, but that they aren't just the demons shown on Hannah's tapes. They're bad and they're good, and this makes them beautifully and enjoyable complex characters. 

9. The all too many one-sided characters. 

Bryce, Courtney, Marcus, Jessica. Now, you may be wondering why I placed Jessica on this list. Throughout the show, I never liked her. I thought she was a resolute bitch, and surely what she went through was tragic and awful, but, like I mentioned earlier, we never see her having a redeeming quality or something else that would humanize her. She needs to be a character first.  I don't think I need to explain why the other three have made this list. However, this isn't a superhero movie. We're not dealing with supervillains, we're dealing with high schoolers. 

10. Lack of attention on mental illness. 

Bullying is rarely the sole reason why someone takes their own life because, in order for someone to commit suicide like that, they can't be in the right headspace. This could have been more complex if layers about Hannah's mental state would have been factored in. If we were shown more about how this not only affected her emotionally, but psychologically, it would make it not only more relatable to people but also more realistic and complex.

11. Episode 11 is a work of pure art. 

Best episode, by far. It was so insightful to both Hannah and Clay, especially Clay's flaws, and why he has them. Every emotional moment hit like a baseball bat. But truly, the reason Episode 11 was so beautiful was because I felt it. My uncle committed suicide about a year and a half ago, and everything Clay was feeling - I had felt. And one of the reasons I thought the show - and some of the characters - were so unrealistic was because someone died and they never felt the feelings I did, thought the things I did. Until Episode 11. I cried during Episode 11 because it was truly what I needed, what I wanted out of that show. I recommend this show just for Episode 11 alone. 

12. Great cinematography. 

Dynamic shots, camera concentrations on a certain character, mood lighting. These all added up to make the cinematography of the show something spectacular. It's like the writing, if the medium was a book. Something I noticed was the flashbacks had a warmer, yellow-toned lighting to them, but the present day had, cooler, duller lighting. This was a great way to distinguish the timing, and even the mood, so much more effectively than just having Clay's cut on his head. The transitions between the tapes and the present day were smooth and dynamic. The storylines were weaved together nicely, and the alternating chunks of the story weren't too long. 

13. Focus confusion on Hannah and Clay. 

Was this Clay's story?  Was this Hannah's story?  Both?  I ask these questions because their answers aren't always so clear. Based on what Clay does at the end, and how he percievably changes, you'd think it's Clay's story. However, by the climax, it's Hannah's story. By splitting the focus on the two characters, we're left feeling like neither story was explored or completed like it should be. When you have a story, there must be one singular character that the story is about, otherwise, the arcs fall flat on their ass. This is what happened here. Clay's mental health, him as a character, the impact he could have had, are all cut short on time exploring Hannah. This could have been balanced out much better by changing the lens in which Clay listened to the tapes, and the way her backstories are portrayed. 

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Now, all of these points contribute to my final, fourteenth thought, like the fourteenth tape.

14. The ending left me frustrated, which is not what it should have done. 

I finished it and screamed. That couldn't be it. Not a drive off into the distance and a fade out. Truly, it felt unfair. Besides a bit of Clay's personal narrative, virtually nothing else was resolved. The court case, the status of most of the characters, what happened when her parents listened to the tapes.

 And you could argue that these things were supposed to be left open-ended because both Hannah's story and Clay's story was done. However, we've come to care about what happens with Hannah's parents, the case, and the other characters. By not giving us feasably conclusive ends to the story, it feels like a steal. It feels unsatisfying. And after a story like that, that's the last thing we want to feel. 

Sure, the author very rarely is required to give the consumer exactly what they want, but at this point, I pose the question: Why build up these storylines, if you're not going to complete them?

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Overall, I really enjoyed - or, as much as I could enjoy a series about a dead girl - this tv show, even if I did have some complaints. I wish there was a fourteenth episode, giving this series the conclusion it really deserves. I do believe it puts forth an important message that words have power, and we can never know what someone else is going through. 

~The WordShaker

Saturday, April 8, 2017

My First Love | Olivia J

"Start writing, no matter what. The water does not flow until the faucet is turned on," -Louis L'Amour

Writing will always be my first love. Everything else is just varying degrees of side hoes.

Taking God out of the equation, which seems counterintuitive, writing will always be my first earthly love, because it springs of a place of God.

My dad, when describing the musical genius Adam Young, always says that God just came down and dropped a little bit of glory, a smidgen of pure talent into Adam Young and blessed him. Not that I can compare to the electropop god himself, but it seems like it's the same concept.

Writing will always be my first love, because it's something so essential to who I am; it can never be removed. You can take the person out of the writing, meaning you can, with all that's physically possible, stop me from writing. But you can't take the writer out of the person, meaning no matter what, I'll always be a writer.

When everything is wrong, when even God seems far away, I always have my words. I'll always have my writing.

Because, while it might seem like I'm glorifying my writing, I'm not. My writing is a direct connection to God, and I know that He's listening, despite what I feel, despite if I ever hear anything back.

Writing will always be my first love, because when the whole world falls away, I know I'm a writer. I know that this is who I am in Christ, and that is my destiny and my fate. I know that because there's a spark, a never ending flame of passion, that can never be snuffed out. The spark that makes the words explode out of me in screaming color. The spark that makes my words touch people in their wounds. The spark that makes my heart cry to tell stories, to hear stories. To be a story.

Writing will always be my first love, ever since I drew terrible pictures of people and scribbled landscapes when I was four. I made my mom write down the narration and dialogue, and then we stapled them together. From that point on, my feet were set. I fell in love, as much as a four year old could, with stories, with art.

Writing will always be my first love. No questions asked.

~The WordShaker

Saturday, April 1, 2017

To All The Boys I've Loved Before by Jenny Han | Book Review

"The secret of if all is to write in the throb, the gush, the flood of the moment. To put things down without deliberation, without worrying about their style, without waiting for a fit time or place," -Walt Whitman 

One thing I love about my school's book club is that it pushes me to read books I never would have before. 

Like To All The Boys I've Loved Before by Jenny Han. 


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I wasn't sure what I was getting into when I started this book, but as it progressed, I found myself liking it more and more. 

Overall, I really enjoyed this book. As usual, it's not perfect, and I have some minor gripes, but this didn't take away from my experience of enjoying the story. 

As usual, we'll start with . . . 

The Negatives

1. Kitty's Betrayal

While I understand why this happened, that doesn't mean I like it. Throughout the novel, I adored Kitty. I have a younger sibling, and I adored Kitty - she was funny and entertaining and had a realistic complexity even though she was so young. Although I understand why it happened, it seemed a little predictable and seemed to undermine Kitty's character at some points. 

2. Lara Jean's Irrational Behavior During the Climax

This book tripped over a hurdle commonly known as misunderstandings. I hate this so much most likely because I'm a pretty confrontational person. If she and Peter had just talked about what happened, surely they could have worked it out, because Lara Jean knew he was different, that he wasn't like that. We're shown this because rarely do we see Peter ever do anything really douchey, despite what the other characters say. All of this could have been avoided if Lara Jean had just been honest with Peter and herself, which she rarely was. While this points out something interesting about Lara Jean as a character, it's still frustrating to the reader, which is rarely the reaction you want to garner. 


The Positives

1. Perfect Portrayal of Teenage Relationships

The confusion, the angst, the strangely new feelings - all aspects of a high school, teenage relationship was perfectly captured here, and it pulled me into the story. The nuances and description of feelings were so spot-on that I couldn't help but be drawn into the story. 

2. Relationship Dynamics

The relationship dynamics, especially between Lara Jean and her family, was so powerful and was a strong foundation of the novel. Snippets of backstory were cleverly revealed and added to the character's development and personality. This gave the characters a deeper sense of reality and connection. The Song sisters had a beautiful relationship with each other, and their emotional moments hit deep. 

3. Smart Storytelling

Things that were set up chapters ago would be resolved, and it was so satisfying seeing these come to fruition. Jenny Han has a way of weaving conflict and resolution into just a few chapters, but also keeping with the overarching plotline. The relationships all built upon each other as the story progressed, and it was great seeing that in the story. It was amazing watching Lara Jean become more independent from Margot, which was one of the subplots. This was built up and executed perfectly.

4. Overall Enjoyableness

This is a pretty general one, but this book did what it promised: entertain me. I devoured this book. Previously, I had been in a reading slump - thanks, Life As We Knew It - but this book pulled me right out of it. I was never bored; I laughed and I cried and I enjoyed every moment of reading this. Time well spent. 

Overall, this was a solid YA contemporary romance. I've already ordered the second book on Amazon. 

8/10 would recommend. 

~The WordShaker